As a person in recovery, I have been through much. I have been abused by others, by the system, by my own actions and decisions and by allowing abusive people to be a part of my life. It does not matter anymore what you believe or understand or even what you overstand, being abused is never acceptable. Separate yourself from those who tear you down, drain your energy and cause you to lose hope. attach yourself to those who are building you up, motivating and encouraging you. Change the list of options you have been choosing from by eliminating acceptance of those who abuse you in any way. Cling to those that strengthen you and strengthen others. We shall all reap what we sow, sow the seeds of love and support and root up all that is a hinderance to your growth.